A WALK IN THE PARK
It happens roughly 360,000 times daily on our planet, and about 11,000 times every day in our country. Our mother experienced it seven times, and so did the three of us—collectively.
We all brought life into the world.
Suzanne’s daughter Julia celebrated her 22nd birthday on February 1st, and it brought back sweet memories of the day she was born for me; sweet-bitter memories for Suzanne: sweet with the final product, bitter with the struggle it took to get her here. It made me reflect on my experiences as well.
Like my two reproductions, Julia was born in my small city. Suzanne was living in her former town, near Mom and Dad. She developed pre-eclampsia, which translates into potentially dangerously high blood pressure during pregnancy. She couldn’t safely await her delivery in the small hospital in their town, so she came here. She was admitted for close monitoring, and fared quite well—initially. So good, that her attending doctor allowed her to come home with me, as she would be just a mile away from the hospital. As long as she came in daily to have her blood pressure checked, and it was okay, she could await her Big Day in the comfort of my small duplex with me and my husband.
That lasted one day.
Her blood pressure went back up, and she went back in to the hospital. My babies were not yet born, so I had time spend with her. I recall many evenings sitting with her at the hospital, and an occasional wheelchair ride around the place for a change of scenery for her.
Two weeks later, her big day arrived. But then, Big Day turned into Big Night, and Big Day again. After 40 hours of labor, the doctor decided it was time to take matters into their own hands, and perform a C-section.
Mom and I had camped there with her for most of those last two days; I went to work during the day and came back, and Mom stayed. Mom was always the faithful Mom. Suzanne will recall—still with disbelief and disgust—that I asked her to make sure she waited to deliver until I returned from a meeting I had to go to. Was that too much to ask after thirty-plus hours of labor? I didn’t think so. Apparently, she did. She still does. Now that I have been in labor for longer than I cared to be times two, I realize it was a bit selfish of me to make such a request.
No matter, she waited anyway.
Perhaps it was the impending C-section that she so desperately didn’t want, or the baby that decided it was finally time to make her grand entrance, but surgical delivery wasn’t necessary in the end.
Julia Michelle arrived just before 6 a.m. on February 1st, 1996.
She grew into a particularly beautiful little red-haired girl,
And an even more beautiful red-haired young woman.
Much to her surprise, her college roommates threw her a party on her birthday this year, complete with her cousins in attendance, even one who made the hour-long trip from another nearby state university. She had no idea, she said.
Twenty two years. Where does the time go? As if any of us have the answer to that question.
Gail has been a mother to her children for 34, 31, 19 and 17 years, respectively.
I have been a mother to my offspring for 20 and 17 years.
That’s 160 years of motherhood between the three of us, which still doesn’t hold a candle to Mom’s 293 years of motherhood.
I have many friends who adopted their children. I heard a story from a friend this week about the adoption of her children: A young couple who struggled in many ways knew they could not give their two young daughters—ages one and two–the life they deserved. Addiction and poverty ruled their lives, and they made the loving choice to find a better home for them. I was so touched by the birth parents wisdom, and the adoptive parents’ acceptance of this gift.
I remember holding my firstborn son. I looked at him, and thought: “I couldn’t love you any more or any less if you fell out of the sky into my arms.” No matter how he arrived, he was my son, and any degree of love I had ever experienced for another human had just expanded exponentially.
I read this fitting adoption analogy: Let’s say you had two back-to-back trips planned—one to Paris, then one to Hawaii. If the Paris trip was changed to Switzerland, it would take nothing away from the Hawaii trip.
No matter which trip you take, they all end up at the same destination: parenthood.
Gail delivered her first child on the last day of August 1983. I remember the day. She delivered at the same hospital the three of us were born at, and by the same doctor who delivered us, and he delivered her dad as well:
Her second daughter was born in a slightly larger nearby hospital with her new doctor, almost three years later.
They lived in Osborne until Gail remarried and moved west. Her next two were born fifteen and thirteen years later in the same town where Gail went to college.
Like everything else in life that requires a struggle, Gail took childbirth in stride. I’m pretty sure she was back at work later in the day after each of her children were born.
Painkillers? Who needs them during childbirth? Certainly not Gail. She scoffed at the idea of medication to ease this pain, the pain that was a woman’s privilege. Having no medication to slow her down, her deliveries were quick. Again, she had work that needed to be done, and she didn’t have time to labor very long.
Suzanne, in her prolonged and interminable labor, signed up for the maximum doses of anesthetic as soon as she could. Good girl. Little did she know how much and how long she would need it.
When left to their instincts, many animals in the wild will sneak away in the cover of night to give birth, which is exactly what I did both times. The first time, it started just before midnight, and the second time it began just after midnight. Both times, it lasted about seven hours.
Being the semi-natural birth mother I aspired to be with my first birth, I decided ahead of time I could make it without an epidural. I did make it, but I did have milder drugs to take the edge off. In the throes of it all, I fully realized I had no idea what I signed up for, wondering just how leisurely it might have been had I signed up for the epidural.
Just over three years later, I was back in the delivery room. This time, I had personal and practical reasons for not getting an epidural: I made it through before, and our lovely new insurance policy through my husband’s employer wouldn’t pay for it. They would cover any complications during birth, but not a normal birth. Go figure.
So I did figure. I figured out what I needed from the hospital to experience a safe, econo-birth, and what I wouldn’t need. I was employed there at the time, so I took a little trip to the labor and delivery floor, and put in my order ahead of time. An epidural would cost over $800 out of pocket, so I didn’t check that box.
Then, in the throes of the prolonged final stage, I remembered that, just over three years ago, I swore I was NEVER going to do this again and why. I kind of forgot that I made that promise to myself. That memory came roaring back crystal-clear at that moment, but alas, it was a little too late.
Recalling that the epidural would cost over $800 helped me get through. I traded delayed pain in our bank account for the immediate pain, and I made it—again.
In the end, it was all worth it—again.
My first reproduction at two months,
and his little brother’s arrival.
My swheat firstborn with my dad in the combine at harvest.
And my second. Whenever I need a laugh or a pick-me-up, this picture does it for me.
My boys have grown up.
When I am visiting with a woman who is preparing for childbirth for the first time, I smile to her, and smile even bigger inside. I know the journey she is embarking upon, and it will be unlike anything she has ever experienced. It will be likely be exponentially more painful than anything she could imagine, and it will likely be more incredible and beautiful than anything she could image.
Knowing there are no words to describe it, I smile warmly, wink at her, and tell her, “It’s a walk in the park.”
I didn’t give birth to him, and he didn’t fall out of the sky into my arms, but my stepson Matt has been a gift from Above for me. I married his dad when he was eight years old, and he has always been a part of our family.
He is holding our firstborn,
going through the rite of passage into adulthood,
and now with his own reproductions.
They live in Wichita now, not even 100 miles away–closer than ever before. We are thrilled.
My siblings and I grew up with one cousin. He lived in Wichita with my mother’s older sister and her husband. He, too, like my aunt and his dad, was blind. My mother’s two younger sisters were considerably younger, and didn’t have children until we were adults ourselves.
I remember being jealous of my childhood friends who would talk about the fun they had with their cousins. We didn’t have cousins that we got to hang out with on a regular basis. I never forgot the feeling that we missed out on something great; this cousin thing.
I am so thankful that my children have cousins their ages they got to grow up with, and hang out with. We always took whatever opportunities we had to get together as adult siblings, which meant our children got to hang out with their cousins too. Gail and Suzanne sent me pictures of our children together, and I found a few myself.
There were many others with our brothers’ children as well, but it was hard enough to narrow the field down to a few with these:
We are the women we are, as well as the sisters we are to each other–in part –because of our children. They have taken us on a journey; a trip to a place far more beautiful than Hawaii. We had one of the best examples of motherhood to follow with our mother, and for that, we are forever grateful.
Mom taught me all I know about motherhood. She made it look so easy.
Thank you, Mom. After childbirth, it is mostly a walk in the park.
Mom with Julia, the birthday girl.
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Another great blog. I loved all the pictures and I learned more things about your family I never knew. I didn’t realize you only had one cousin growing up. As you know I had so many cousins I couldn’t keep up with the count. Seemed like their was another one or two born every year!! It was fun having cousins to go visit and sometimes stay with. I’m glad your children were able to do this. My dad’s side of the family try to get together every other year at Easter. We rent the Tipton Hall since there is so many of us. It’s always fun to see my Aunts, Uncles, and tons of cousins who also now have families of their own. My mom’s side occasionally have family reunions but not as often It’s always good to see them too though more of them live further away so not as many are able to come. Hope you have a great week and a Happy Valentines day.